I suddenly found out myself alone ,responsible but disarmed .It was like a dream ,but it was the truth which I have to live the rest of my life believing in. He left . Yes , ,he left us without any note saying " I'm leaving " He didn't even give clues that he would leave . The expressions on his face never told how much he endured ! He pretended that he was alright after being discharged from the hospital a few months ago . We noticed his mood change and felt relieved .We didn't know that it was a sign of his leaving forever . It's like a final station where we will all pass through one day . My dad passed away
At the moment in the hospital ,I didn't believe it and kept on walking and completing the procedures of his death as if I were a doll . All feelings got stuck and frozen except for some tears broke that ice and rolled out saying to me " You lost a shielder ,you lost your dad " I burst in crying .
Funeral got prepared on the next day and people gathered .I didn't really know how that night before went on . What I recall is that I wished if I could shout out and say " He's not gone yet . He's around just look at his shadow .He's coming ! what those words of condolence are for ?! Are you insane ?! He's okay . But at last people have gone too and remained his shadow in every part of me before I see it in every corner he used to stand at or stay .
May Allah rest your soul in paradise dad and forgive you .Ameen
